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Thesis pressure & perfectionism | Weekend Edition. 14
Sunday Snippets
The weight of my thesis has been looming over me for months now.
I’m clearly a perfectionist - I’ve come to accept that. The idea of having to be perfect right here, right now, is such an intense expectation to place on someone, so why do I place it on myself? I need to give myself grace and understand that in this moment in my life I am not an all-knowing academic, I am simply a student. My job isn’t to save the world through my research, it is to learn and grow.
I don’t have to be great to write my thesis, but if I want to write a great thesis, I need to write.
Releasing those pressures has honestly been so relieving. I found it so much easier to sit down and start. Granted I still am finding it difficult but hey it’s a start and isn’t that what this is all about? As my friend said: you may as well die trying.
MOTW: Finding the balance between social life & study - really enjoying matcha dates!!
Sunday Saves and Shopping
After last week’s hit of retail therapy I ended up coming home from syd to a pile (or should I say mountain) of packages. Naturally I’ve placed myself on a shopping ban; however, I think it’s necessary to review my recent purchases.
The first day I wore the Uniqlo cashmere I got compliments from everyone. It’s soft, relaxed, yet well fitted, and a great colour way. 10/10 would recommend.
I’ve been reaching for this Zara blouse everyday because it elevates a basic jeans and a white top look but still feels casual.
Both pairs of Zara jeans were returned because (as we could’ve all guessed) they are too short.
Monday Moodboard:
Soundtrack
Olivia dropped her latest single the cure on Friday and it was very important we listened to it right on 2pm. dude this song. I actually can’t because according to spotify I have already listened to it 42 times and it hasn’t been 24 hours since it’s release.
Olivia capture the level of vulnerability unique to romantic relationships. They amplify the best parts of yourself and magnify the uncomfortable parts. When you get up close and personal you suddenly find yourself looking back on yourself. All of a sudden there’s this mirror in front of you and you feel so exposed.
my head is full of poison and my heart is full of doubt.
All that’s been left unresolved and pushed aside starts to come up and you soon realise they aren’t the one to solve it. I’m in awe of how she captured that exact realisation that we’ve all tried so hard to ignore - that their love will never be the cure.
why can’t you come stitch me up? why can’t it ever be enough?
Anyways, I’m getting carried away. This is truly my favourite Olivia song - there’s so much emotion behind it it. It’s brutally honest.
Isabelle and I spent Thursday driving across the city - from Kin, to uni, back to La Burns - and of course, with her being Irish, I made sure to queue all my favourite songs from her homeland. She introduced me to Favourite by Fontaines D.C. and I showed her Starburster. From now on, I only want to listen to angry Irish rock.
Caught up on some Therapuss episodes and particularly enjoyed this one with SNL star Marcello Hernandez. Also, if you haven’t watched the movie Saturday Night with Kaia Gerber you need to asap.
Stories & Shows
With all the dense readings I have been completing for my thesis I have found myself gravitating towards easily digestible media. My favourites this week are the following:
The Debutante Divorcée by Plum Sykes - light, quick read that made me L O L
Off Campus - Forgive me for saying this, but I really enjoyed binge watching this. I have found myself twirling my hair as I ask all my friends whether they’ve watched it yet.
Searches
The most recent search was: what does not my monkeys not my circus mean?
Screenshots
Random, but I really liked the way they recorded their day and the calculation of habits
Green goddess dressing by @biancamelas that I enjoyed making for lunch.
My All-Time Top Songs by spotify. Had no idea I listened to FTDT that much?? besides comfortable silence is sooooo overrated.
Love you all so so much!
Signing off,
Ella x